I’m constantly in positions that require me to give up something I love for the sake of furthering my life/happiness. I never want to let these things go, but I always end up feeling better when I do.
It still kills me everyday thinking about how badly I want them. How badly I just want things to be the way they were. But they never are, the same problems I have with myself resurface and I can never seem to get them under control. Even for the sake of something I’ve always wanted.
But, I will survive. And I will continue missing those things just as badly as the day I lost them, if not more. However I have a complete understanding of what I must do to keep myself moving. Keep myself happy, productive.
I just wish more than anything it didn’t have to be this way.
I don’t know what I want, but I have an idea finally.
Oh hey look Weezer
*turns on Pinkerton